I went to Lake Bonny Park and spent one hour there. I wish I could have stayed their longer, reading a book or just letting some of my pent up stress out. However, my life is too busy and too hectic for me to spend any more than one hour to enjoy something that I live in. The sad thing is, I didn't even have the opportunity to let my mind clear and relax. I am running in high gear, overwhelmed by the sheer amount of classwork that my being sick has put me behind in, the days ahead of me at work for preview days that I must spend hours and hours setting up and preparing media for prospective students, and my utter failure at getting my extremely tight schedule set for next semester. I look out at nature and I see an entire world. My small one is crashing in on me but out there, nature is wide open.
Nature represents a freedom to me. When I was young, I would play in the woods and creeks around my house. Going out into those woods was a haven away from my parents, from my homework, and from my chores. When I looked around in Lake Bonny Park I wanted nothing more than to wander away and forget about the relentless pounding of stress that I must endure every day. I just want to roam the woods and swim the lake and be forgotten. If I could be one with nature, that would be my role. The silent roamer. Hah! It has a ring to it.
I wasn't able to get much out of my experience at Lake Bonny Park. Sometimes even the glorious creations of God cannot stand tall against the never-ending mountain of the human mind, constantly obsessing over everything. Even in the quiet, one's thoughts continue to scream out. I love nature, but life is a bitter sweet thing that I must endure.
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I agree with you when you say, "even in the quiet, one's thoughts continue to scream out." This is so true. However, I think that it is important to make a conscious effort to put those thoughts aside and listen to God, as hard as it may be. I think it is important to take moments like this, or we will never learn how to enjoy the life that God has given us.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you couldn't enjoy it. :( I can sympathesize. Sometimes we're so consumed with everything else that we can't appreciate whats right in front of us. That's how I am right now. I was supposed to go on a trip but because of the stress and pounding from school, I knew I wouldn't enjoy it. Try to catch yourself a break and relax for a half hour..Just think.. home is a week away.
ReplyDeleteI think that's the problem with many of us, our lives are so hectic that it's hard for us to enjoy the simple things.
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